WHF! Is my printer spoilt or what? Replaced the ink cartridge and by right it should work right, but it still says cartridge empty?!? I spent 17.10 and it just all wasted?!? +&%$#! Waste my $$. There would be problems with printing of notes now, as everything must be printed from school, even if it's just a single piece of paper. I'll be having problem since after printing so many stuffs, there bound to be something that ended up missing during printing. As in, who would go and memorise which notes you printing? At least I don't. Just print every single files in my thumb drive what..
Why can't everything just go right? Why can't I just have a smooth life? Why must I face with so many problems? Missed the days of just being a kid, with no worry of any thing in the way, but just happily enjoy tv programmes, and kept drawing the whole day. Life is so in a messy, to stay alive is so tiring. Being thinking, if one day doc just says to me "you have 3 months left", or maybe enough for me to finish my sem 2, then what would I do? Funeral would be wasting cash, so just cheapest will do for me. Ended up being burnt eventually, and ashes to be scattered into the sea. Then I wouldn't leave anything else behind, right? Nothing for anyone to miss me. Then while I'm alive, should I 'break up' with everyone, not stay alive, hence no one will remember me at all, or should I hang out more with them? I would really want to meet up with everyone else out there, whose really busy everyday. Then maybe again, if I say I'm dying, they would start spending time with me.. Sounded emo, yeah? However, ain't my life really sucks? All because of one ink cartridge, or maybe not, but just pushing all the blames to that foolish old fool. Sometime, being a millionair would be good, since I wouldn't have a need to care about anything in the world, since having money is like having everything in the world, everything in your hands. Well, almost.
Where's and what's my motivation for living on each day now? Somehow I felt as though I'm avoiding someone, unintensionly. How does this happened? The more I see, the more I'll feel, the more I'll wonder. Then try not to look, but is it possible? The fire within, seemed to be still burning. Or is it not? Everything still seems confusing, despite I know what should be done, yet it's uncontrollable. I will try my best not to have another crush on someone else again, not forever though, but would it be possible just to leave the heart empty?? Empty empty, now whole person felt so empty too. Just an empty walking shell, a zombie maybe.. oh hii elmo..
Back from training and felt very very tired again. quite relax for a training, except for the 100 counts of 4 of starjumps to end the training. Nothing really much to do online, no new anime episode coming out, nor drama, no game or whatever so. This goes on, think I'll lose my purpose to stay alive. Wouldn't I? Why am I born in this sad world sky is grey..
ps: That mental disordered old man is still in amk, thinking that he's some dunno what powerful person, directing the buses in the bus stops. Don't anyone felt pissed off that he always blow that whistle, annoying high pitch. Why won't someone just call the Woodbridge??
signed off ♥
